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I just finished completely re-organizing the second closet in my house in the past 24 hours. I supposed this sudden burst of energy could be attributed to “spring cleaning” but I think that it’s a little more complex than that.
For as long as I can remember I’ve had the urge to organize things around me when I’m having a difficult time organizing things within me. I must just need some sense of satisfaction and completion.
After all, it is a lot easier to physically organize the things around me than it is to get control of all of the things rolling around inside my head.
I knew that trying to change my life was going to be difficult but I don’t think there was any way I could possibly know how mentally challenging it would be.
Although I certainly haven’t hit any monetary milestones yet on my journey, I’ve encountered more possibilities than I ever imagined.
With these opportunities, however, come very difficult decisions. I think things are even more complicated for me because NOTHING is happening the way that I expected it to.
For example, my current JOB is in the construction industry. I planned on someday abandoning this industry completely to pursue my entrepreneurial endeavors. I had absolutely no plan of trying to include the knowledge gained in my construction career in my new life.
Call it resentment, call it stupidity; I had every intention of leaving all that knowledge behind and never looking back.
Now, certainly, that knowledge would never really leave me but I had absolutely no desire to continue working in construction once I was “out on my own”.
As I’ve been progressing on this journey, learning about myself and trying to navigate the self-bossing waters, I’ve heard over and over again how you should use what you know to propel yourself into self employment.
Although that has always made complete sense to me, I’ve fought it tooth and nail when it comes to my own life. I’ve tried to convince myself that there are other things that I know well, too, and those are the things that I should focus on to build a new life.
Recently I’ve had the good fortune of being involved in some exciting new projects at my JOB and it’s re-ignited the fire that I used to feel on a regular basis at work.
I still don’t want to slave away the rest of my life making someone else rich, but I was reminded that I do LOVE what I do.
So once again, my mind has been sent into a complete tailspin as I ponder whether or not my plan should completely change. Should I reconsider my vow to leave the industry that has given me both extreme joy and enormous amounts of stress over the years?
Will that wide-eyed passion for being part of the building process return when I can work on my own terms?
Can I train my brain not to associate my new work with the old 9 to 5 prison?
Have you left a JOB but remained in the same industry? Was it a smooth transition? What helped get you through?
It seems that I have a lot to think about and sort out in my mind. Good thing we have a lot of messy closets!!
~ Hope
“When the world says ‘give up’, hope whispers ‘try it one more time.” ~ Anonymous
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